Miss you like hell Juulia

In our diabolikal rapture we live on and on and death keeps knocking at our door.
In your heavenly rapture we die on and on and you keep waiting at our door.

Yes – we open the door.
Let us die a bit more.
Because we´re in love with you and we die on and on.

The Heartless 666 Ways To Love Version

Cause your pain ain´t love!

Can’t you see he’s the heartless, your pain is not love
he’s taking it too far, don’t you know it is wrong
you’re the one for me lady, you’re the one
if you’d only see in my heart, you’d know all is not lost ..no

i’m waiting, i’m waiting, waiting, waiting

your time is running out and you still haven’t made up your mind
can’t you see he’s the heartless, and you’re one of a kind ..ou

he’s the heartless

you’re the one for me lady, together we shall be ’till the end
and if the sun comes down when you’re not around it will surely put me through hell
you’re the one for me lady, together we shall be ’till the end
and if the sun comes down when you’re not around it will surely put me through hell
don’t listen to the one with no heart he’s tearing you apart
he won’t ever let you go, do you know what that means
he’s not the man of you’re dreams if he’s the one with no heart
and he’s tearing you apart

you can’t see he’s the heartless, your pain won’t ever be love
it doesn’t matter how hard you try, to you all is lost

i’m waiting, i’m waiting, waiting, waiting

you’re pain isn’t love

he’s the heartless

They don´t believe in heaven

But they do believe in love

I only got one thing to say…

This freaking kills me slowly

Even though she is just a hopeless cunt and he is just a misunderstood junkie – can there be anything more beautiful?

A dead heavy day

I wanna thank you, cause it makes me that much stronger, makes me work a little bit harder, makes me that much wiser.

Yes, I´m sick again. I´ve got bronchitis and sinuitis – suprise, suprise. So, I do get sick and tired of lying.

Cut me down to size, only you can tear me apart.

How come I didn´t know?

I love to watch you when you mess around, with my mind.

Gosh, I´m sick again. Not a big suprise, but I´m getting so tired because of this. I turn 19 soon so my life shouldn´t be like this. I just want to be healty again.

But tomorrow I´m going to move from Pasila to Kallio. This has been very stressing as I have not had an own apartment for 3 weeks. I have been there and done that…

The sweetest truth of my life must be that I am so afraid of… fucking everything. Maybe I shouldn´t ask for easier life just become a stronger person. But how hard can it be?

I go liquid when you come around,
and I know
I go solid but don´t get me wrong,
Yes I go!

I freaking love this song!

Girl, I didn´t know you could get down like that

Charlie, how your angels get down like that?

Oh yeah, she wanted to be a heartbreaker.
And that is exactly what she has become.

Gosh. I have become what I have always hated – easy-going, wanton, witless numb.

Well, my school has ended. Strange. And I want to change my job. I mean – I have to change my job. It would be stupid for me to stay at my current one forever. I´ve got a job interview to Group 4 Security… I would become a security guard.

R.I.P. Joni Luoto

Your car became your coffin.

To know that you´re alive

A cold heart is a dead heart and a deserved soul is gone.

Again, the burden of losing rests upon my shoulders… and its weight seems unbearable. Some way, the waiting world is chasing me.

Bloody hell, they say that “never give up on someone you can´t go a day without thinking of. I totally disagree… And he´s telling me stories, so old and lame. I think I´ve heard it all before. “I should have told you… within me hid a secret so terrible. I never wanted to fool you, I never wanted to lose you.” There you go.

But forever is too long – it weights upon my shoulders and wakes me up at the night.

Glory night

I´m a devil on the run, a six gun lover, a candle in the wind.

One fine day, I will settle down. But at the moment, I´m down on my luck. It´s tough, so though… And I don´t even give a fuck.

In a sense, I love my highway! And I´m really in the mood for running away. Where would I go? …I don´t know. Well, I´m planning some kind of holiday trip.

When I have been thinking about my social situation, I have noticed that surprisingly, I have become the dominant side in my every friendship.

At the moment, I am looking for a new apartment as I´m going to move out from my current one. Simply, I am just not able to live here anymore. It´s now or never.

This ain´t a song for a broken-hearted. A silent prayer for a faith-departed.

Once cold fingertips

We´re so Christlike, so lifelike, Vampire Christ.

Some things have come to the end and some have just begun. I promise, I will do my all for myself. Why the hell would I think someone else than myself as I only have myself for sure? Why the hell would I live for someone else than myself as I am the most important person in my tiny life? I hope you got me.

I´ve got a very cool job interview next week. I´m planning to change my job, as I said before. We´ll see what happens. My school will end next month, so I´ll start to work full-time. The only problem is that I should not earn too much, cos otherwise I have to pay my study grants back.

We´re so alive, so lifelike, A Vampire Christ.

There´s a heartbreaking song for a frozen heart and a soul on fire:

All about me

People tell me I´m too high when I´m around and when I´m not I´m closer to the ground.

“Boy, don´t disregard the fact you´ll always see her coming back. The only thing she ever wants to do is to be strung-out over you.” Honeys, sweethearts, please let there be freedom with love -_- Do not kill your darlings by chaining them.

Enough of you, lets talk about me. It´s all about me. For I am the big star and you´re just wanna-be, wanna be.

So come and get me baby, come invade my mind.